U THINK I DUN FEEL GUILTY AND SAD?BUT U KEEP DOING THIS,I HAVE NO CHOICE K?MY EMOTIONS IS VERY FUCKING GUILTY AND SAD K!??!ITS LIKE I'M PUNISHING MYSELF BY NOT DOING WHAT MY EMOTIONS ARE MAKING MY ACTIONS DO OKAY?ITS HARD TO CONTROL AND ITS REALLY PUNISHING ME IN THE HEART OKAY?!ALL THE MESSAGES U GIVE ME,MAKE ME PUNISH MYSELF MORE..ITS NOT EASY OKAY?!I'm...but u kept doing this...